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Pieces of Moments

The title seems a bit improper.  Can you have pieces of moments?  Where I was going with this thought is, there are ordinary and extraordinary moments in our lives.  Where do we find joy?  Where does heartache go to heal?  What of the prayer requests we send out? Are they tucked in-between the life we are aware of, or the places that are unfamiliar?

I’ve had conversations with two different, important women in my life.  One gave a response that involved seeking a solution and the other wanted to be a part of the solution.  But in the end, I found myself in prayer, searching for a nudge, an answer that would allow me to breathe and carry on.

And yet, here I am, still in the midst of distress.  I know Jesus wants more from me.  He wants me to pull out of myself out of the muck and mire.  He knows that I am in there, but He isn’t going to do the work, that is my job.  I have to figure out where to go on this path.  He guides and lights the way, but He cannot live my life.  I want it easy.  Simple.  Now.

God wants us to learn how to follow him and put down our demanding selves — to calm that screaming child in us. One way he helps us do this is to say, “Wait.” That miserable, uncomfortable, sometimes painful state of silence is one of God’s most powerful tools to set us free.

If we are willing, that is.  ~Jade Mazarin

The blessing comes out of patience, time, waiting on God.  His grace abounds, and that is what we will hold onto while He is working in us.

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Pieces, scraps of paper

The original book (which this blog is based on), “The Pieces” is from journals, scraps of paper, various writing I have done inspired by my faith and what God has taught me. Here are a few unpublished revelations.

“The Pieces,” my story, Your words. Inspiration  & truth.   Let’s save the world with You!

There was a time during my chemo journey that I anticipated only three treatments.  I was very disappointed to learn there would be a total of six.  God reminded me that He is the great Protector and Healer, that I am never alone.  (I felt very lonely during this time). 

The tumor, surgery, recovery, chemotherapy, healing from incisions, chemo brain, infections, neuropathy, the list goes on, I thought I would possibly die from one of these.  But here I am; still.  My Savior never left, encouraging me with the words of kind people, doctors, cards & visits.

Jesus, thank you for being present.  Forgive my anger and frustration  The enemy is hard at work, trying to get me back.  But he doesn’t know how coated in the armor of God I am, that my soul is filled with light, joy and grace.  Genesis 3:1-8 I too, hid from God while the pieces of evil were coming together.  It is not MY battle to win, it is Yours.  You are already there.  I know this lesson, but have chosen not to see.  Choosing to skip church or several mornings of devotions, gives the devil an inch.  Keep me close Lord, remind me what being lax does to the human spirit.

I am covered by the Armor of God:

  1. Belt of truth
  2. Helmet of salvation
  3. Towering shield of faith
  4. Mighty sword of the spirit
  5. The breastplate of righteousness

I feel peace in my spirit.  Each day is a gift.  So much came from cancer, the times I felt lonely, Jesus drew closer. 

 

 

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Feeling Pieces

We often feel a certain way; anxious, sad, happy, joyful, worried, compassionate, etc.  Feelings however, can mar our walk of faith.  We tend to trust how we feel, instead of what God is actively doing in our life.  Especially when it doesn’t seem like He cares or is listening, or has a plan.  God always has a plan!

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Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding (Prov. 3:5).

Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered (Prov. 28:26).

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? (Jer. 17:9).

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Pieces of Companionship

What does companionship have to do with faith?  A lot, as it turns out!  Conversation, conversion, discernment, spiritual direction, even sharing in community projects.  It’s always more enjoyable with a friend.

If you regularly attend a church, you maybe involved with the different ministries that support the members or outside communities; such as social justice.

I’ve found that using the skills you already have can help others in what they may need.  If you are organized, maybe help with the food shelf.  If you like to read, volunteer to proof the newsletter.  If you enjoy hearing about the “old days,” visit your elderly members.  There is always a way to reach out, and in doing so, you increase your faith, and likely – that of those you are in contact with.

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When you are a bright light in a dark world, sharing your testimony of faith is a gift to those who are open to hear it.  I give God ALL the glory for bringing me out of ovarian cancer and healing my body.  God planted the seeds for research and treatment, I am blessed beyond words, to be alive.  Alive and well and cancer free.

So when you need a friend, reach out to those who know you, and perhaps you will extend your reach even further, to those you don’t. 

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Pieces of Exhilaration

It’s hard to find hysterical joy in life.  Especially in the world in which we live.  I’ve always been a “see the sunshine in the clouds” kind of person.  I hope my positivity is contagious!  Today at a Lent study, in all the exhilaration I could muster, I lifted my hands and said:  “I’m jacked up on faith.”  The room roared with laughter, I knew they were laughing with me and not at me, but it was a bit startling; I was simply sharing how on fire I was for Jesus.

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I think we need to experience these moments more often.  Either we need to say something mind-blowing that moves the room, or we need to be on the receiving end of it.  Laughter and humanness is good for the soul!  It reminds us; particularly in regards to our faith, that the world needs to see more of Jesus — in us!

Become exhilarated for Jesus! 

 

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Learning Pieces

For the past fifteen years I have been a spiritual seeker (and hope to continue).  I have attended a variety of churches, Unitarian Universalist taught me how to care for Mother Earth, how to make change with social justice and I met a minister there who challenged my beliefs (in a good way), by asking me to define what I believed and to shake out the old cobwebs of my childhood.  With the task, I created a “mission statement” of my beliefs.  It still involved Jesus and a Christian approach to my life, so “questioning everything” was no longer filling my spirit.

I moved onto Episcopalian, which became a church similar to my protestant upbringing.  But this church was also missing the other part of my life; my husband.  We all reach enlightenment in our own time, but a longtime prayer had been, that one day – we would walk the path together.

The pieces were all coming together.

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Through the many years of soul searching; I semi-regularly attended retreats, classes and an occasional mass; all at Catholic monasteries, retreat centers or churches.  The Catholic beliefs pulled at my heart, I always felt great peace in my spirit when I was in the presence of people from this religion.   It was a calm I had never experienced before.

I began Spiritual Direction late last summer.  I was evolving in more than spiritual ways, I was coming from full-circle from cancer.  I was shaking off the old and injured parts of my psyche, ready for new.   It was there in those gatherings of discussion, did I realize that I wanted what I had always experienced in monasteries and classes, I wanted to become Catholic.

Symbolism, rituals, peace of heart, calm spirit, the focus on prayer, the great love that Jesus has for me, the desire for something so much greater than myself.

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I now attend weekly RCIA classes to become an official Catholic.  It is a place to ask every question pertaining to the Catholic church, faith, “why do they A, B or C.”  I was ignorant in the parts of Catholicism I didn’t know.  There are still questions and I haven’t got the rosary down yet, but I’m a work in progress.

And now, I walk the path; separately and together, with my hubby.  It seems that this “faith thing” is now coming together!

#beblessed  #faithisnotareligion #wisdom

 

 

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Pieces of Change

I have never considered myself a particular religion.  I was baptized and confirmed “Lutheran,” but haven’t attended a Lutheran church in 40 years! Spent four years with the Unitarian Universalist church, meeting amazing people who challenged my beliefs.  Met a new friend who invited me to her church; Episcopalian, new to me, but also similar to the Catholic churches that I had explored, including retreat for more than fifteen years.  Seems that maybe I was heading the way of Catholicism, but never felt the draw to convert and join.  UNTIL NOW.

I’m on a new journey; again.  Thank goodness that God honors and encourages the soul to seek.  At least, that’s what I believe.

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So once again I put my thinking cap and glasses on, looking toward a new future, one that saves my soul, captures my spirit, embraces my faith and brings me closer to home.  Amen.